Did I know what hard was? Clearly no! I am so overwhelmed by being a full time mom. This was my dream job, to stay home with my kiddos 24/7 while the hubby did the working. Now Im second guessing my dream job, it's harder then I even expected. Wait I take that back I didn't even think it would be this hard. Kudos to those mothers that's been doing it longer then two years! I can't even remember the last time me and the hubby went out on a date! I mean it did kinda get harder with three lil munchkins especially now that I'm nursing baby Nancy so she literally has to be with me where ever I go. It's only been two weeks since giving birth and I feel overworked. I really just wanna get a nice hotel for me, take a nice bubble bath, eat a gourmet meal and drink lots of champagne! Lol JK cross the champagne and replace it with a mango smoothie! I feel guilty for even thinking like that but hey mommas need some me time and its ok to dream! But then reality kicks in and my two very active boys and a hungry newborn remind me no sleeping on the job! I love my kids with all of me they're my everything, without all the chaos I guess I wouldn't be losing these calories cleaning after them or being their full time toy picker upper! As much as I complain how hard being a full time mommy is, I seriously have the best support system from none other then my husband! I really don't know how I got lucky with him because postpartum after birth with me can be exhausting. I kind of take advantage with the whole healing process lol. Oh and not to mention my mood swings! My poor husband, but hey I went thru the pain during labor so let me soak it in!! He really helps me out a lot with the kids, even though he works 12-13 hr shifts. On his days off he likes to take the boys out to some place fun whether it be Hollywood Connections or just to the park, just so I could get some rest. Now that baby Nancy is here my me time, I will be sharing with her. But its ok, I like the newborn stage all they do is literally just eat and then go right back to sleep so it's not to hard. All in all even though motherhood is not all sunshine and roses and as much as I can complain how hard it is I honestly wouldn't change a thing. I have learned so much from being a mother, my kids teach me so much it's rewarding and I'm so in love with them! I guess you can say our date nights have become just a redbox or netflix kind of date while the kiddos are sound asleep, but hey at least we are getting us time thats all that matters. Being a mommy rocks! Happy late Mother's Day to all you awesome mothers!
Oh do I know how you feel!! I have always worked part time because of that feeling. But some moms like my mom, my sisters can stay home and be perfectly fine with it....I have to have a break away from the kids in order to be a better mom! lol...kids are such a huge blessing, some days while I'm at work I think ughhh I don't wanna work and then on my days off, I'm like ugghhh get me outta here! haha so it's definitely work, but so worth it. Your kids are so beautiful, and I feel so lucky that when I had my kids, you all were there to help me out, and were happy to do so. So if you ever need a date night, break away...don't hesitate to call me or Nana...we would love to babysit! Love you and your beautiful blessings!!
ReplyDeleteCeni, your such a wonderful mommy! I'm sure Paea and your kids appreciate everything you have done for them thus far and continue to appreciate the hard work, kindness, love and patience you continue to show them. I have to agree with you though, being a SAHM is very difficult and at times I think I can do it and then I start to think if I am not working I am not being productive and am just lazy. Then when I get a job I complain that there isn't enough time in the day to do my motherly/wife duties and then work. I totaly feel ya. I have a hard time with my 3 boys at times but i couldn't imagine watching 3 kids under 4:( Props to you for being a super mama! I need more patience like you. I think you do deserve a break and hope you start feeling better sooner rather then later.
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