Changes :)

Wow it’s been long bloggers! I have so much catching up to do...It's midnight and I am the only one wide awake in the house and unfortunately I can’t sleep but freak I should be sleeping, being a mother of two it gets exhausting. I should be taking advantage of it especially since my newborn is sound asleep so sleep should be my friend now...But nope I’m here thinking of all the changes that has happened to my little family good changes an overwhelming happy feeling. I’m just so happy I wanted to let it all out in writing and share it with my bloggers...yes this happy to tell total strangers!!! lol. Siupeli’s 2nd birthday past and we celebrated it with baby Paea’s blessing at Jordan Park it was small but fun for the kids. OH how time flies! My boys are growing and their bond is precious. I gave birth to my little Paea back in May and have been on maternity since then and hated the thought of even going back to work. All I ever wanted to be was a full time mother not a doctor or lawyer but a stay at home mom taking care of the kiddos while hubby did the working you know living the American dream...ha-ha but none of that happened reality came and I was supporting the family financially instead of hubby and we were living with my mom with no white picket fenced house. I hated it I was being so selfish and wishing I wasn't working but stayed home taking care of Siupeli 24/7 at that time when there was one. Hated my husband even thought of the D word (divorce), I know how dumb was I? lol but with faith in our heavenly father and Jesus Christ, hubby finally got a job at the church humanitarian center and everything CHANGED not even 2 months there and he got an offer at another job making more. It was coming close for me to return back to work and just the thought of it I hated I wanted to freaking cry we thought of all the possibilities of who would stay with the boys or if I should go back. I would work mornings and hubby nights but with hubby’s new job schedule, well you know a newbie schedule so he gets the sucky one working 12 to 13 hour shifts, he would be drained from work coming home at 3am or even 4 he would be too tired to even wake up to take care of the boys. We thought of family members and even daycare but we did the only thing we knew that could help us, we prayed about it and we felt it was better that I stayed home with the boys rather than taking them to daycare and I returning to work. Plus we've heard a lot of wacky daycare stories so that definitely was a no go to daycare and family members were either working or had too many of their own to watch and the only other person I wanted to watch my two boys was serving the people of New York...I cried of excitement knowing I would stay home with my two boys a sigh of relief came over me and I wanted to celebrate, super happy knowing I was officially a SAHM! Now hubby does lots of overtime to help us financially it sucks because he is at work all night then sleeps during the day so there’s no really us or family time until his days off. I look forward to his days off its like I'm super excited and anxious like a little kid counting the days of when his next day off would be like were going to go do something fun kind of feeling but sometimes it’s just a red box kind of night or just talking our heads off about nothing lol. I'm just happy knowing lots have changed and I know I am more happier. Now were in the process of moving out getting our own place not renting but owning our very own home! “Why rent when you can own your own home”? lol I had to write this hehe…It's a process but hopefully in a few months we will find the right place to call home our very own white picket fenced house, only if they still exist! Lol... So maybe I am getting my American dream after all! I just had to be patient, it might of not happened when I wanted it but hey at least it’s happening slowly! LOL